Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Approaching the Anniversary

On Saturday, ML's Birthday, it will be 1 year since she has had her first seizure.

I never expected this 'anniversary' to really bother me. We have a diagnosis and the medication is working wonderfully, and I am no longer afraid of EPILEPSY, but this reminder is hard. Driving up to her day home after work yesterday, brought it all back. It was on her third birthday last year, that I saw the ambulance parked outside the day home, and all those horrible memories of seeing her lying on the ground with IVs and a oxygen mask, keep coming back. Last summer was a very difficult time, as I didn't know what was wrong with her, she didn't get the official, final diagnosis until late October.

I wish that this 'anniversary' was not on her birthday, as I don't have happy recollections of her 3rd birthday. It wasn't the the "Dora" party that I had envisioned and planned. Instead it was an ambulance ride and a stay in the hospital.

I just want this Saturday to be a truly Happy Birthday for my little girl.


Molly said...

Hi, found you through Crazy Hip Blog Mamas (waves!). I hope the "anniversary" wasn't too bad or traumatic for you. I have had epilepsy since I was 11 and I think it frightened everyone else around me more than it did me, and I know that the drugs they have now are far superior to when I was younger (many many moons ago!).

And even though she has been diagnosed with epilepsy, she is so young that she could actually grow out of it.

Tanya said...

Thanks for the comment Molly! (waving back!)
The anniversary was uneventful, and you are right, epilepsy probaly scares everyone else more than the person living with it!

Thanks for stopping by!

Molly said...

Thanks for stopping by at mine too!